His.
In the past few months, identity has been a huge theme in my life. Where do I find my identity? What is considered a good foundation for my identity? Whose am I? How do I define myself?
In reality, I have struggled with my identity my whole life. However, it was not until I moved to Seattle that I realized this. Without straight A's, close friendships, mentors, and family, I didn't know how to define myself. I could no longer be "the smart kid" (there are much smarter), or the "best friend" (can't wait to see her though), or the "responsible one"(college=procrastination). I used to think those labels were sufficient, that those were what I was and that was the best I could be.
My foundation for my identity (good grades, close friends, etc.) crumbled when I moved to Seattle. But a crumbled foundation just leaves room for a new one to be built. I'm in construction as I write this. I'm choosing to let Jesus lay His foundation this time around. The wonderful thing about Jesus is that He is faithful, He will be there when everything is great and when I am overwhelmed with questions. Being rebuilt is a process though and a hard one for me at that. I have never had so many questions about my faith, or I just have never been willing to let these questions surface.
Whose am I?
If I was in church, I would always know to answer Jesus. Yet, subconsciously, I look back at my life and I can see that I labeled myself by my friends or family. I was "Natalie's friend" or "Josh's little sister". Moving away was like losing my identity and worth in that area of my life.
Until God got ahold of me, again. Lately, it's been a reoccurring statement in my life. Whether it be what we talk about in small group, the radio, or the lyrics to a worship song, God's adoption of me shows up. God created me, He chose me, and He wants to be my dad. That's just cool. I may not completely understand everything that goes along with having the ruler of the heavens and the earth as my dad but I know one thing is for sure:
I. Am. His.
“For WE ARE GOD'S masterpiece. He has created us anew in Christ Jesus, so we can do the good things he planned for us long ago.”
-Ephesians 2:10
